Hi there,

I know, I know. I haven't been blogging since forever! I have apologised countless of times and here is another apology, I'm really sorry for not updating my blog for more than a month or two? :( I needed to rant and let things fly away, so I decided to blog about it since all you are kind of my ' family.

Let me start,
I don't even know what to say because there's just too much on my mind. Honestly, I feel like such a pathetic human being for so weak. I just, I don't even know. I feel like every ounce of happiness has been dragged out of me and I literally feel so numb. I can't even explain these thoughts of mine in the correct manner.

I know I said I wanted to rant but honestly, I don't think I'm up to it because I just, I just can't , not right now. I hope all of you are doing better than I am and that you have a great week ahead of you. I love all of you equally.

Please stay strong, I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.
Signing off,
xx

Punk vs Chic.

Hi guys!

Well, I needed some inspiration and so I organised a photo shoot with my closest friends. It was just for fun , don't start criticising the pictures! Heeee, enjoy :3

Chic

Punk

I decided not to put many pictures as my computer is being a tortoise and I can't edit fast. I hope these pictures gave you a little fashion inspiration! 

Love you guys.

Signing off :* 

xo

Carry on.

Hey there !

I know I haven't been consistent in updating my blog and it's only being I have been having my exams. Exams suck, I know. My IGCSE's are in exactly 3 months and I'm freaking out big time. I haven't a clue on what to study for in college/university.

I just wanted to update you guys on how life has been these past 2 months or so. As some of you may know that I lost my dad almost 2 months ago and it has been tough. I haven't been getting considerably enough sleep for a few weeks because I've been having continuous breakdowns and it's really irregular. I would breakdown at the most random moments. I really didn't know it would be this hard to go through. Also, I have been feeling to torn away from my family and also my friends. I feel like I don't fit on anymore and there's just too much going on. No matter how hard I try to not let my emotions get to it, it eventually does and I breakdown.

I just, I just don't know how to feel anymore. I say this a whole lot but it's only true. If only I could just be and feel happy , now that would be bliss. I can't seem to grasp the fact that I lost my dad. I mean, yes he's gone but I guess I was never prepared for it. I wasn't prepared to accept his passing. I've never felt so broken and so lost. I would never wish this on my worse enemy. This pain just hurts way too much. I relapsed 3 days ago, the blade became my best friend for 15 minutes and I just lost it. I've held it in for too long and I didn't know how to handle too much at once. I didn't have anyone to just fall onto and cry my eyes out. I don't regret it but I do wish that wasn't my outlet.

To those who are going through the same thing, not only losing a loved one but also feeling lost, insecure and broken, please hang in there. I know it seems like it wouldn't get better but I promise, it will. I am here for anyone who needs someone to talk to , even if you just want to rant it all out, I'm here. Always remember, you are amazing and beautiful. You are worth it , you are so worth it.

Stay strong,
I love you.

Signing off ,
:*
xx

Left everything in shambles.

Heeeeey guys!

First off, I just want to apologize for the lack of update on my blog. I know people hate excuses but I have a good one ? hah, I've been so busy with school because I have just started my mock exams which is a pain in the ass because it goes on for almost a month and since I'm having my exams, I ain't allow to go no where. Yay me.

I will just cut everything short from what has happened from the new year until now. Get ready ;)

On the 27/28th , I followed my sister to the airport to send off her boyfriend. heee. On new years eve, I stayed home with the fambam and watched fireworks then went to bed. On new years ,    I just stayed home , lazed around and was in pain because my monthly friend came to visit me.  On the 5th, I went to my brother's best friend's wedding with my whole fambam and it was my first wedding I have attended since I was 4? hahaha. On the 7th, second term of my senior year started and I was bombarded with books and studying until last night. Oh, and I got glasses, cause y'know, I can't really see far, hahha.. So there!

Pictures will be inserted below so no one kills me. *wink

 Sending my sister's boyf off.

  

Wedding with the fambam.

annnnd, got glasses. B)

I promise, I will update soon after my mocks are over. Love you guys!
xoxo, signing off :*

Miscellaneous

Heeeey, I haven't updated since the 5th day I was in Singapore but I didn't really do anything so I didn't get to take pictures. I did go to a close friend's house for a Christmas Open House and here are just some pictures from Singapore and Yesterdaaay . Also, I didn't get a chance to use my camera to take pictures so all the pictures taken are by iPads ;) Ignore the quality, sorry!

 This is Andrea.

This is Farrah!

  This chinese girl is Winnie ;D

 That is Carissa!

 This is Arvinash!

 Thats Amanda ;)

At the end of the night, we all made a very epic cover of two songs which will be posted soon enough ;) Hope you guys enjoyed the post and I am truly sorry about the picture quality! NO MORE, NO MORE! :D

Also, I would like to wish everyone a very merry belated Christmas and I hope you guys had an amazing day. May God guide you in the right directions and protect you and your loved ones from harm!

Signing off :*

Black and white, well, kind of. < Day 5, Singapore>

Heeeey, I am not actually heading anywhere special today but I did go to my godsister's orientation for Secondary 1. Her school ( CHIJ KC , Singapore) is such a strict school, it really made me giggle because skipping school is an offence. WOAH. Anyways, I did take a picture of my oufit of the day and some outside/ nature pictures. Enjooooy ;

 I do hope you guys enjoyed this post and I will be updating my blog if I have something to actually blog about. Thank you guys for everything, much love xx

Signing off :*